Maria,
I hope you will see this comment. I am so sorry to hear that you are affected that way. I was bulimic as a teen and then I had issues with binge eating. I was never overweight, but it still affected me in a lot of ways.
Trying to get help and some information is the first step towards recovery.
I wish I had a miracle solution to offer you but I think recovery from any eating disorder is a long process.
Here are a few things that helped me:
Stop restricting myself: If you have some foods that you consider “bad” and deprive yourself from, then it is more likely that you will binge on them. If you allow yourself ice-cream, cookies, cheese etc as part of a healthy diet, then they are less triggering.
Avoid alcohol: I don’t know if you drink at all, but for me it was a trigger. I would come home, feel sad and lose control.
Find what is really bothering you: Often binge eating is a sign of unhappiness and bad feelings. If you can, seek a therapist. Or talk to your friends / parents about what is upsetting you. Dealing with those emotions will help you avoid the need for bingeing. For me, my eating disorder was triggered by being the victim of sexual assault and having an abusive parent. But we all have different triggers.
Find other ways to cope: For me this was the hardest, replacing bingeing (and sometimes purging) with something else. I found that I could not do it when I felt sad or overwhelmed. But when I started exercising and crafting when I was happy, I found that I would naturally turn to those things when I was sad. So when you are feeling good, try cultivating a healthy hobby you enjoy, and turn to it in hard times.
Remember, it takes time and you’ll need support. Recovery is a process, so you might have relapses. But you can get better 🙂
Anyhow I hope my “novel” might help you! And if you need any support, feel free to contact me. And I look forward to reading others’ solutions when Caitlin posts them.